Here's something I learned in track:
I ran the 300 meter hurdle race (among other things) and I would hyperventilate before the race. And then I won. I think that a little bit of stress is a good thing, because it lets you know that you'll have to kick ass very soon, and gives you the needed adrenaline.
Of course you don't want too much stress, so here's something else I learned at track:
After the race was over and I was done kicking ass, I was, you know, completely winded, felt like I wanted to lay down and die. So what could I do? nothing. Sooner or later I'd regain my breath, and in the meantime I just decided to accept the fact that I felt horrible and acknowledge that I'll eventually feel better.
So, if you tell yourself that you'll be done soon, that test will be over tomorrow and you'll feel fine, you may be able to chill out a little. :D
Hope that helps!
i hoop it all away now..i have had anxiety for years and hooping just takes it all away.
I also, have been having these problems. In fact, they are so similar to yours it sounds, it blows my mind. Minus the school part though. I mostly get anxious or stressed from day to day interactions with people, and even though I used to be a social butterfly, I am now a complete loner, although I do try to reach out of my comfort zone to hang out with people but usually feel awkward and I obviously have a ranting problem. I do, however feel things changing for me every day almost like I am a little more whole every day. But some days are worse than others.
I have a manic depressive disorder with anxiety, and do not take meds. I really want to be able to live life without them, that is my ultimate goal. My anxiety causes me to push away people around me all the time.
People say, 'just be happy' but I think sometimes when you actually have a chemical inbalance in your brain it might be a little less black and white than that.
my extreme fear of confrontation and voicing my concerns to people of authority is what gets me, and definitely a fear of being out of a control. when i start to cry in front of people like that, i worry about how i will be perceived and thats what escalates it from being overly emotional (i cry in any situation of confrontation) to panic attack.
i was talking to the human resources person at work today about how my hours are being cut from full time to 30 hours a week, and i felt like my supervisor didnt necessarily have my best interest in mind. this woman was totally on my side, and really has more of an outside perspective than most others at my job, but because i was crying as i was explaining myself, i was worried about what she would think. i was worried that she wouldnt understand why a 25 year old woman is crying about having her hours cut. and that worry was also compounded by thoughts of bills to pay and all the personal sacrifices i have made to advance myself in this job that are now seeming not worth it because i was being penalized. by the time i was done explaining my situation, i was hyperventilating, and flushed, and i felt like i had a stack of bricks on my chest. and this was before i was supposed to begin a 10 hour shift!
keeping busy with even the most menial tasks and taking my mind off of it really helps. i find THE WORST is when people see that i am visibly upset, and ask me if im ok or what's wrong... that just brings it all back to the surface, and any progress i made in calming myself down is shot. when someone asks are you ok, i feel like i have to answer them honestly since i know that i don't look like i am, so saying i'm fine would just be lying. sometimes i just wish people could leave me alone when im trying to recover from a panic attack.
i've cut hooping out of my life a lot recently because i work so much and i am trying to spend time with my boyfriend, with whom i have totally opposing schedules. and i've been trying to cook for myself for the week a lot more, so that takes up a lot of my free time, so hooping as a means of dealing with stress hasn't been there in my life, but you can be sure that I will be doing it a lot more since my hours are being cut at work.
my health insurance kicks in soon, and you can guarentee i will be going to see my doctor. i've been on zoloft and prozac for anxiety before, and i definitely won't be doing that again. however, i would really love some xanax or klonopin to have in those moments when i simply can't control the psychosomatic reaction taking over my body. however, i have also been looking into alternative remedies. i was reading about inositol or vitamin Bh, which has shown to have calming effects for those with panic disorder. it is also supposed to help with OCD and depression. the side effects for it cant be any worse than the side effects of an SSRI, so im going to give it a shot. hopefully they carry it at whole foods so i can use my discount.
i wish my boyfriend understood this disorder more, because thats the most heartbreaking thing for me. he thinks i do it for attention, and that i have some sort of control over it. i wish i had even just a shred of control when i am having a panic attack. the littlest things can trigger me, and i think thats why he thinks its a tantrum. i dont know how to convey to him that this is a physical disorder and not a cry for attention.