has anyone ever felt lonely for no reason?
lately i feel horribly...empty. it doesn't make much sense...i have a boyfriend who i live with so i'm never really alone for extended periods of time...i have like one girlfriend, who is awesome. i can tell her anything and she and i have a great relationship. these are the only two people who i really have connections with though...don't get me wrong, i'm so grateful for them.. i just feel like i need more. i feel like i have wayyyy more love to give. two people simply aren't enough.
so lately i've been opening up to other people and giving them love, but it ends up that they don't deserve it, or aren't interested in being friends. it's hurtful. i feel like i'm wasting away here...i'm new to this town, i know very few people...i feel like i could do so many things if i just had a group of people to do it with. it kills me to think about how many things i'm going to miss out on this summer because i have no one to attend events or hoop with...i've never been a one-friend kind of girl...and it seems like no one around here really gets me. plus the weather's been super crappy which only adds to my sadness...sigh.
advice from any others out there who who have been in this situation?
how can i find peace inside myself without friends?
We love you here in Westmoreland County, come hoop with us! I know it is a 45-60 minute drive but if you ever want to join us, you are soooo welcome! You are welcome to crash at my house even though I have to leave Friday mornings for work at 5:40...ha.
I feel lonely for no reason, too. My hormones get all messed up during my monthly friend and I get real self esteem issues when I do (although to be honest, hooping has REALLY helped that for me). Sometimes I feel like I get left out or forgotten and then feel really bad about myself for it, but over the years I've learned/tried to overcome it. I remember - hey, i have a beautiful marriage! i shouldn't be lonely. and I acknowledge how much fun I actually am having and try not to let what my friends are doing/where they are going get me down. I feel like I've had a lot of friends who have just suddenly up and left our relationship (with no reason that I know of) and I feel like I must be uninteresting/boring or annoying. This has sadly happened with some people I had once considered good friends, and so a lot of times I put a slight guard up with people I meet until I think I may be able to let it down. Ugh what crap!
I try to see the good in everything and try to learn life lessons through my friendships. It can be hard at first but eventually it becomes clear. Just remember, there will always be someone who loves you, wants to hang out with you, wants to see you everyday. Some days it may feel hard to believe, but please remember that it is true!
<3 you girl.
Check out this video. I found it helpful when I was feeling alone. Beautiful, really...
and you're in a great community. someone is always here for you. i have my moments, especially around this time of year. so glad to see the wonderful, loving, supportive responses from everyone. <3
also, here's a song that I sing whenever I'm feeling alone, it's from the movie Hook.