I feel this way too Muri. My mother watches the news at 6 pm every night and day shows in the morning into the afternoon. I do not enjoy TV much and I can not live with many of my mothers way, TV programing or direction she pushes. The programming controlling what you hear and exposed to being had then the keeper of the house pushing these atrocities and cover ups to all in listening. This is even played while she is plays, the radio of a TV, while she sews in my old bedroom. As i get home for the night after biking for all my daily activities I make a cool down drink and start dinner for my lonesome vegan self. As I start this crative and soothing process I am confronted not only by the pestering mother with what you do to day I have a TV blaring. I always in her home have forgotten necessary ingredients in my formula or let food pass. Not only is just the media can not be turned off when I ask not to be left alone she guillts on me because she is not allowed my daily news at 6 o'clock. It is a struggle to do, create, when the media and mother knows best will not let one create, live or breath.
It being forced. It being WORk, LISTEN, DO and Be SCARED, the force fed life of a conformity. My mother does this to me and I never wanted it. I liked the creativiy of nature and dance and metaphorical speech. I cannot even go near her with out her trying to fed me this soup from the TV or Microwave that I do not want controlling my life of being creative or one. This was done from childhood too...much and exsists still as I return as a man to gather what is still there, repeatedly. So I must not be her vision of her American dream and she still tries to make it in my head.
Like you Muri I do not like this hate of me or my actions. These forces of mother to me be bad and they damped enjoyment which brings down the quality of a simpler of life that I strive for.
I am here at hoopcity trying to find new people to have creativity resonate, through the vibrations of these rings revolving and what we hoop in.
wow. first off let me say i love the way you articulate yourself. absolutely beautiful, you understand words much like myself.. are you a gemini or a virgo can i ask? maybe capricorn or taurus? you seem like an earth sign to me, or someone ruled under mercury is why i ask..
and second your life honestly sounds like my life. EXACT. my mother hasnt worked for about 26 years maybe longer.. is mooching off her ex-husband( my father) and has the nerve to try and control mylife, a 18 yr old whose had a job since she was 15, my own apartment since 17, and NEVER allowed the media to control her, I've been spiritual since 9 yrs old. Thats a pretty wondorous accomplishment I believe, how lucky of a mother to have a child that knows shes worth something, which so then make my mother know she's worth something for giving birth to such a "thing", and still she see's opposite, and her life isnt worth anything in her mind..
ever since i CAN REMEMBER no bullshit.. my mother has been sitting on the couch. she drinks ALL DAY, not getting drunk might I add, she's that adapted to alcohol fueling her veins. The only information shes ever recieved was the news, dr. phil, or jerseylicious..
I try to speak with her about my beliefs, and now im crazy, ungrateful and on drugs. Im stupid for thinking the universe is mysterious because to her the universe is bland, life is bland, life is boring, and your just here, for no reason..
to me life is a dance, lifes reason, is no reason but to be.. and thats too much of a thought for her to understand.. someone who BELIEVES you actually can be BANISHED to a firey hell from a god that sits on a throne in the clouds... and im the crazy one..
She lives in fear, lives by a conditioned perception of what things are by the media..it scares me as well because her ignorance is SO strong, it makes me worry about humanity's hope for getting out of this rut, of "normaility" that has been pushed on us.
I too joined this community for freedom of expression, and to keep me sane, being able to have thought-provoking conversation with people with the same passion as me, spirit, cycles, flow.
what do you do to deal with your unsatisfyed mothers way of living..?
And it so happens that After I wrote this My mother called with in Five minutes. I did not want to answer at all but i did.
i believe we are one divine spirit. one pulse.
everything is powered by energy, which is neither created nor destroyed, just free.
since the very beginning, whatever you feel that may be, all energy came into place and since then bounces around, nothing is lost. energy moves from capsule to capsule, it just switches it's appearance/container. this means i personally believe in reincarnation. when the physical body dies, the soul leaves it to find another to empower, embrace. unfortunately as facts show, the more trees we cut down the more animals we kill, the more our human population grows. we are unrightfully taking energy from beings we consider below ourselves, not as important, to grow and expand our ever growing need to take up space.
but in reality, we are all children of the earth, no more no less than any other creature on this planet. we need to realize this. (i feel so many people today do not think, are not awake, they have bodies that move and talk but there is no soul, no true light. this is sad)
people now a days, and i suppose since the beginning of our existence (just not as obnoxious as present time) are corrupted by fake ideals, fake values, we don't seem to know the true meaning of the word value anymore. we value nothing, not really. we value the wrong things, things we made up that don't mean anything. why don't people understand, everything is an illusion, control, power, greed etc..
not every human being out there has bad intentions, and the ones that have do might not really feel that way think that way, just were taught that way.
learn to love. let go of insecurity and doubt. believe in positive energy. meditate. reconnect with nature.
hope is out there.
there are indeed good souls who can light the way for everyone. we must at least provide them the knowledge, show them a different way to strive, to progress, and let them decide what they will.
hate, judgements, stereotypes and the pure feeling of 'wanting' will get us nowhere.
we need to become a real community and think as a species, for the greater good. earth is our mother and we need to respect her and treat her well. she provides us with everything we need, just look around.
ps. hippie communes and festivals to replace concrete solid cities!
im posting off of a phone so it is difficult to express all my thoughts properly.