2011 is literally kicking me in the a$$. I literally am wondering what bad karma has found me and what I possibly did to deserve it. First, I got kicked off financial aid at school, so I'm being forced to take a semester off which is NOT what I needed. I am already kind of behind and I do not like not being in school. Which means I have to start taking summer classes, which definitely stinks because not only is my 21st bday this summer, so are all the festivals. :( Okay so no school, I can work that out. Second thing: I am on day 4 on completely cutting my ex out of my life and its sucking all my energy. No texting, talking, facebook stalking, anything. It's for the better but it's really hard. Last thing? I got arrested. I have NEVER been in trouble with the law. I got pulled over for speeding (which here is $120 FINE!) and he made me blow for a sobriety test. I blew less than the legal limit and he instantly arrested me for no tolerance. WTF?! I now have tons of fines/fees and have to appear in court which is most likely to end in community service and probation for one year. Not to mention I've lost my license for 3 months. I cannot catch a break to save my life. I wish I could understand why I deserve all this. I like to think I'm a pretty good person, but apparently not. At this point I'm considering taking a waitressing job at a night club just to pay off my dues. And I have to pay to get an ID card made because I use my ID constantly, but I no longer have one. Might be on the verge of a total breakdown. Hoop therapy is gonna be a must now, since I can't leave my house hardly and I have zero money. *Sigh* I miss when times were easy and life was good..
Apologies for the sad talk, appreciation for reading.
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