And the bird whispered in my ear, was it everything you hoped for?

....and I responded, yes, even more...

A manifestation of my dreams, hoop dancing with Shpongle, has arrived and departed. Twice did I spin and dance before the crowd. And twice did I achieve a long sought after goal. Simon Posford was nicer than I could have ever imagined. He treated me with such respect and interest. He even asked specifically for me to have my own solo in the second show. THAT was one of the nicest surprises I could have ever asked for! He also requested my presence at another show in the upcoming future, but I think it would be best to not think about it too much. I don't know how serious he was, and ...I don't want to get my hopes up...

Regardless, I am now in this state of...emptiness almost... One moment you're up on stage with thousands of people screaming in your face and you're gettin' down with your favorite DJ in the Green Room....and now, you're back to sitting on your couch, watching your puppy sleep and waiting for your boyfriend to get home from work... I feel drained of all my adrenaline. It's such a strange feeling. Now I feel myself Craving for more, and, in a way, it frightens me. This fear of Greatness lingers over me... How do I not become jaded by success? How do I continue to settle for mediocre when I've tasted the glory of Greatness? I have to meditate on my anxiousness, it's the only thing keeping my from bouncing off the walls!

As I stare into the distance, tunneling my vision past reality, I hear questions echoing in my brain... "What's next?" "What does all this mean?" "What am I feeling?" ....and then I feel commands bombarding these thoughts.... "Stay focused" "Breathe" "Work harder" "Relive the moment" "Do what you can to get back up there" .....It kinda feels like going through withdrawal almost. It's hard for me to think about anything else, but performing with Shpongle and meeting Simon, and talking with him and having him...after all these years, recognize me.

It was crazy actually! I told him that on youtube my name is ShpongledHoops and his response was, "Ah yes, you're Mona" ....I died a little inside when he said that! I couldn't believe it almost. Keeping myself together around him was somewhat difficult. I just ended up being rather shy...I was kind of in a state of shock.

*sigh* I guess until next time...until then, patience is my virtue

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Tags: dance, greatness, hoop, jaded, mona, performance, shpongle, shpongledhoops, thoughts

Comment by Harlow [Hulacination Hoops] on May 12, 2010 at 3:23am
Congratulations on all of it! I understand that sense of emptiness, when something great happens. Though the quietness after the chaos could be good, you could use it to think about what step you're going to take next.

Good luck with everything!
Comment by Traci "CircularPraise" Bonney on May 12, 2010 at 8:45am
Congrats, Mona! I know from previous posts that you've really been excited about this opportunity for a while. The letdown is natural after all the buildup, and the thrill of performing can be addictive. I agree with Natasha; take some time now to reflect on what's next and to reconnect with the simple joy of hoopdancing for the fun of it. Remembering the joy is how you keep from getting jaded by the performance aspect of it. I wish you continued success, wherever your path leads. :-)
Comment by spider baby on May 12, 2010 at 9:39am
now that was like reading a fairy tale..so awesome..to achieve the dream that you strived towards... and of course he knew who you were...he would have to be totally oblivious to not have noticed you...you are spongledhoops.. keep dancing mona but don't lose your magic by pushing too hard for greatness...looking forward to seeing more videos and i imagine simon will watch them too..
Comment by Sarah Mays on May 12, 2010 at 5:45pm
You are soooo talented Mona!!! keep shinning!!!!
Comment by Kinetic Kristen* on May 12, 2010 at 7:58pm
That is so awesome! Congratulations, Mona! I"m so happy for you. :)

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