Comment by Phoenix on October 3, 2011 at 2:44pm

I'm so sorry to hear that... But I've been there before. My first serious boyfriend and I were together for almost 2 years and then I was forced to end it right after prom because I found out he was intending to cheat on me when he left town with his friends. At first I was devastated, a total wreck. We had always spent all day every day together. For 2 years! I didn't even have any friends that weren't his! But then as the summer went by I began to learn a very important lesson (which I'm sure everyone on this planet has already told you)- that you don't need a lover to have fun. That summer I met a ton of amazing people that taught me so much about myself. Once you can accept that you don't need that other person to get along it's like a weight is lifted from your shoulders. You're no longer afraid. Although I'm in a relationship now I sometimes miss being single because it's the only time you're truly free. So go out and live life to it's fullest before you end up falling in love again! Being single and being in a relationship are both amazingly wonderful experiences. But for now, the universe (or whatever you may believe in) is trying to show you how awesome it is to not be tied down. Good luck on your spiritual journey! (And kittens are always cool!)

Comment by Stevie Cee on October 3, 2011 at 3:14pm

eople have told me I dont need a lover to have fun. My lover never hooped, even though I did. She didnt go to burning man even though I did. But I did imagine us living together and being happy together for many years and now that future idea has been ripped away from me. I dont know where to go. Where to move once ive saved up enough money to move out of my parents house. What will make me happy . . . that is what I need to figure out.

I suffered from clinical depression, self injury addiction and eating disorders for many years. Untill I found hooping I went through the motions of life but had no passion for anything. Hooping has been incredible in that way. I found something I loved that I didnt need anybody else for! Then I slowly started meeting people and having experiences I fell in love with. One of those, my ex gf. 

 

Time to jump back in the hoop tonight I think.

Comment by Stevie Cee on October 3, 2011 at 3:15pm

oh crap, the first half of my message got deleted by accident. ughh...unmotivated to retype it all. but thanks Pheonix, for sharing your story and view point with me...

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