I've been feeling dumpy lately. There is something I don't want to discuss explicitly on hoop city, but I wish I could, because I feel so lost. Surely someone out there has been where I am and has some advice. Ever find yourself wanting to do something with most of your heart, but one part of you won't let yourself grow? That's where I am. There is something in my life that's just holding me back, and I want to chuck it. But I'm surrounded by it, and it's woven into every fiber of my lifestyle, friendships and even my marriage. Even my hooping. Every day when I wake up I think, this will be it. Day One. This is the day I'm going to grow up. This is the day I'm going to be okay with just being me.