there is way too much going on. and i constantly feel like i'm not doing enough. i am 16 weeks pregnant, constantly tired and had to moved to another state to live with my boyfriend. that took up all my savings, and energy. the herb shop i own is still back home in lawrence, so i also have the added stress of figuring out how to run my store remotely, travel back there regularly, unpack and figure out how to drive around this very traffic congested city in my $800 piece of crap car.

this is all way too much. and sadly this new place has NONE indoor hooping space. nor do they allow animals. which is my biggest bummer of all because my ex husband whom i share dog custody with is totally willing to allow me to have the boys a couple weeks here and there, but this stupid complex is ridgedly stringent on their pet policy.

i barely have energy to feed, dress and bathe myself in a day and i know tons of pregnant people who work tons of long hours and already have kids, or are still hoop goddesses and look great throughout their pregnancies, but that is just not me. this is no the precious moments i thought it would be.