Im just going to vent here because no body else understands how heartbroken I am. I bought a 200 dollar LED hoop a while ago that was stolen. I finally pushed my limits and bought another 200 dollar led hoop from cosmic hooper and received it last weekend in the mail. I have been doing nothing but working morning and night almost everyday yet somehow still slipping more and more in debt. I needed this for my passion. To remind me there is more to life than the grind. It was absolutely beautiful. White lights that showed purple and green as I spun. Yellow and purple tape. It even broke down into two smaller hoops to encourage me to work on my poi style spinning. I used it once outside of phish this weekend because my friend ended up not having the ticket I thought he did for me when i got there. The ten minutes of spinning made me happy. Then I went to ikea in shaumburg il the next day. I removed this and two other favorite hoops from the back of my car to load up. And left them all leaning against a pole in the loading area. I didnt notice till i was back home three hours away and the store was closed. Today they say nobody turned anything in. Im so heartbroken. So broke. So sad. So depressed. So angry at myself. I feel wrong to be so hurt from loosing a material item. But somehow I feel like a part of me is missing. My escape. My getaway. My pride. I feel empty. I have to pay off my massive debt before Il ever have a hoop as beautiful as that again. But thanks for listening to my dramatized problems I feel somewhat better knowing one person might understand.

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Comment by spider baby on August 17, 2010 at 10:41am
i know it is not the same as a fancy LED hoop, but can i send you a prod mod hoop i will make for you ?
what size diameter do you like and i have pink, green,blue,white, fast changing 7 colors, and slow changing seven colors
LEDS..just choose and i will gift you one..the tubing i use is either HDPE (stiffer) and LDPE (not as stiff more opaque) outer diameter is 1" ..just let me know... i remember you from when i started hooping in early 2009 and your tutorials really helped me.
Comment by spin gypsy of Centric Hoops* on August 17, 2010 at 10:48am
im so sorry that this happened to you. i am totally in the same boat as you in the fact that no matter how hard you work, it always seems like you are still broke. ive been working since i was 15 to be able to have my own spending money, graduated high school, went to college, and now as an adult i got screwed over by people very close to me and am now in debt a major amount. when you are a good person, no matter how untrue this seems, it will always work back out for you. im sure that someone will turn them in or maybe they will return in some kind of monetary form. dont worry chicky. i can feel that you are totally crushed. just smile and dont let it get you down. sometime things happen in the strangest ways; this could have been a time to show you to be more repsonsible or that you can still be happy without something you hold so dear- i dont know, but i am a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason" no matter how cliche it may be. i hope that you get a call that someone has turned them in. if not, may you find the peace in forgiving yourself and moving on. ill be sure to send much loving energy your way today. peace
Comment by Miss Texas on August 17, 2010 at 11:25am
awww I'm so sorry to hear this... and I am so amazed at the generosity of spider baby, you are truly a kind soul. I totally understand how you feel about always being broke. It seems no matter how much you work, it's never enough to relax. And if you do get ahead, something comes along that wipes out your bank account once more. Hang in there, girl, a new hoop is on the way :) or perhaps your old one will show up, you never know.
Comment by Traci "CircularPraise" Bonney on August 17, 2010 at 12:56pm
Don't beat yourself up over losing the hoop or how you feel about losing it, sweetie. Take it from one who knows - when we lose something that matters to us it hurts, and when it happens because of something we did or didn't do, that hurts more. To this day there are things I miss because I didn't take them with me when we evacuated before Katrina. I can't dwell on it, though; otherwise, I'd be depressed all the time.

Take spider baby up on that generous offer; you'll both be blessed by it. I wish you peace today, my friend.
Comment by Traci "CircularPraise" Bonney on August 17, 2010 at 12:56pm
Don't beat yourself up over losing the hoop or how you feel about losing it, sweetie. Take it from one who knows - when we lose something that matters to us it hurts, and when it happens because of something we did or didn't do, that hurts more. To this day there are things I miss because I didn't take them with me when we evacuated before Katrina. I can't dwell on it, though; otherwise, I'd be depressed all the time.

Take spider baby up on that generous offer; you'll both be blessed by it. I wish you peace today, my friend.
Comment by Shelley "HoopyChick" Gilbertson on August 17, 2010 at 2:49pm
Oh, man, I have no words of wisdom or comfort, but I do want to offer a cyber {{{hug}}}.
Comment by Mrs. Skittles of Sparkle & Burn* on August 18, 2010 at 11:39am
Omgosh! I am SO sorry hun. I would be devastated too. :( *hugs*
Comment by Nichole Bair SenseSublimity on August 19, 2010 at 8:02am
thanks everybody im feeling much better now. I think all of my emotional ties to the hoop are gone. It just took a little bit to forgive myself. Its so weird when i think about how I literally sabotage myself all the time. I remember setting them down and thinking dont forget. Then thinking well of course I wont forget they are my fav hoops and they are right next to me. lol its almost comical. Spider baby thats really the sweetest thing ever!!! And im sure anything you make would be very beautiful. I helped someone make one of those once and it is extremely time consuming. It takes a lot of effort. So the fact that you understood my hurting enough to offer this really means a lot to me <3 <3 <3 I could never except such an amazing gift with out anything in return babe. Im thinking maybe this was a lesson. I shouldnt spend money that I dont have. No matter how important it may be to me. I think I will buy another for myself as a gift AFTER I get out of debt in a couple years. thank you all for your support <3
Comment by spider baby on August 20, 2010 at 6:21pm
does that mean you won't accept the gift, or that you realize that sometimes you have to just say thank you and smile while accepting a gift... sorry i am confused..i want nothing in return.
Comment by Nichole Bair SenseSublimity on August 20, 2010 at 11:20pm
spider baby....I know you want nothing in return. The offer made me feel so much better :) however I just felt a little guilty thinking about all the time and effort you would put forth for this gift to practically a stranger. Honestly...I just dont know how to react to that kind of generosity lol. If you feel strongly about this I would be extremely thankful and appreciative of course! But just know your kindness is all i needed to bring back my smile....not the tangible gift ;)

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