I think it's time for me to stop hooping altogether. I'm not fishing for compliments, here; I honestly think I just do not have what it takes to be a hooper. I don't think it was meant for me. It's difficult beyond what I'm willing to bear anymore and it's become something that is discouraging and frustrating and has given me a much more negative opinion of my body. Isn't it supposed to do the opposite? Wasn't I supposed to find myself, find some hidden talent, acquire a brand-new way of thinking about my amazing body and what it can do? Well, sorry to be a downer, but those things didn't happen.
I have two hoops, both banged up from use, that are sitting in my house, gathering dust. I wish I could get rid of them, but no one wants pre-owned hula hoops (and I don't blame them). It's a damn shame this didn't work out, because I would have loved to be one of those flowy hoopers who just grooved all day long. There was too much pressure to dance with my hoop while executing complicated tricks and moves, and it became overwhelming.
So, thanks to everyone for the advice, the help, the inspirational stories, and the friendship. This is an awesome community of people, and I really regret that I didn't fit in very well.
Happy hooping to the rest of you :)