I've been a lurker on this site since Christmas time, so busy working and spending time with friends until school begins again. I finally got myself out of the situation with my ex in which we were exploring "friends with benefits" and are now just "friends". He did something that finally was the last straw for me, and I think you all might understand why. He came to me saying a friend did him a favor and he wants to return it. No big deal. So I make this girl a hoop, no idea how tall or big she is (don't even know her name, he didn't want to tell), just winged it completely and used all my nice tapes because I love making them and I know the joy it brings to get one. Come to find out, he wants to be dating this girl. I only found that out because she wrote me a thank you on FB and he later sent me a FB message telling me he is interested in her. Now is it just me, or is that the shadiest shit ever? Not to mention he didn't pay me for it, and I got him a really nice Christmas gift without so much as a thanks. He also broke the 30 dollar poi I bought him in Nov. for his birthday. As if her favor was so epic that she deserved the world and I deserve lies. I'm just done. 2011 is time for me, time for me to maybe even be lucky and find a man who I can love being with.

It is also time for new hoop tricks! I haven't been doing it much, feeling stuck in a rut. So a great friend made me a new CD and I'm going to watch up on my new videos to get back into it. I'm done being walked on. I'm a good person, I deserve to at LEAST be happy with myself. I'm ready to start making costumes too, I love my new sewing machine. And this new computer! This year is gonna be a great one, I just know it.

Peace, Love, & Hoops.

Thanks for reading <3