I've been thinking a lot lately about so many different things. For example, my life, what direction I'm going in, my happiness, the things I want to experience, my dreams...and mostly how to go about making those dreams come true. I feel like I'm at a major crossroads in my life right now for some reason. I'm very content with the way things are going and the people who are in my life... but I just feel that there is something more I need to do.

The more and more I think about this the more and more the idea of doing a yoga certification abroad seems like a completely logical and very good idea. I keep finding myself drawn to reading books about peoples spiritual experiences at ashrams and with gurus and all that . Every time I read just one book, I say to myself "I want that too!"

It's weird, I went to a very expensive and prestigious art school and consider myself a pretty good artist (I love art!) which I guess is where I'm having my... issue. It's almost like my brain is telling me "well you went to school for art and that's what you should do!" any I do I love art, but I hate being told what to draw and when to draw it. Since graduating from SVA I have worked various retail jobs (and hated almost all of them) I guess what I'm getting at is that I don't want to feel like I've wasted my money by going to art school, but I just can't shake the feeling that I'm supposed to pursue this yoga certification thing.

Well I'm not really sure why I'm writing this in the first place, I guess to just get it out of my brain and onto virtual paper or whatever. I guess whatever I'm supposed to do will come to me once I stop worrying about it so much.